Saturday, 24 November 2012
My Life as a Publishing Intern
Yesterday I received some bad news and it got me thinking about the choices I was making career wise and if I was headed in the right direction. The ups and downs I have been through in that past 7 months have been numerous and yesterday I began to wonder if they were at all worth it.
I went into University 5 years ago knowing one thing, I loved books and I loved reading, so naturally I went into English. But about half way through my first year I realized this wasnt the type of thing I was looking for, I did not want to be a teacher (I do not have the patience for that) and I didn't want to work in a bookstore my entire life, considering I already worked in one part time. So I investigated and found out that my school had a Publishing program, I jumped at the chance and changed my major, and honestly I still think, to this day, that it was the best thing I ever did. I learned more about the book world then I ever could inside of a bookstore (although I will admit that my job did help me in school...a lot). I met some of the most amazing people that have become life long friends, and I wouldn't change a thing about that time of my life.
During my last year I applied to an internship at HaperCollins Canada through some contacts I had known through working at Chapters, and to my surprise I got hired. I never expected it to happen that fast, I went from school straight into an internship and it all seemed to be so surreal. At Harper I learned what it meant to be in the Publishing industry and being there strengthened my need to be in this world. I wanted to be around books, and convince other to read certain books. I wanted to create plans to promote the books I loved and the books that everyone would love. It was at Harper that I fell in love with blogging. I started writing blog posts for the Savvy Reader, and loved it so much that I chose to start this blog. It wasn't until Harper created a blogger night, where certain bloggers from the GTA came and hung out for a night, that I realized how this could change my life. I have met so many amazing people through blogging that I am glad I was able to be a part of that.
At the end of my internship at Harper there were two openings in the Marketing Department and I applied to both. I didn't know for sure if I would even be considered but I was, and I appreciate the opportunity they gave me, but in the end they went with two others who were more qualified. I will not lie, it did hurt to know that they wanted someone else and not me, especially when I worked so hard and gave everything I had. But to be honest, I met and became friends with so many people that it was all worth it. The heartbreak that came from rejection was nothing but a sting compared to the friendships I have established. So I am very grateful for everything HarperCollins has done for me. They were the first to give me a chance and I appreciate it so much.
After I was done with Harper I went to a few other job interviews that led to more rejections and I finally decided that maybe another internship was needed, so I applied to Kobo to become a Merchandiser. As you know I am there now, so I got the internship and when I started I was told that there was a position opening in my department in December and that I would be stupid not to apply, so obviously I did. I worked extremely hard, gave extra time and effort in order to demonstrate that I was fit to work for this company, and I thought I had a real shot at this. My first full-time job in publishing, this was my shot. And then yesterday I find out that they gave the position to someone else. I am not going to sit here and tell you I wasn't upset, because it took everything I had not to burst into tears at work, surrounded by the people that chose someone else over me. It was probably one of the hardest days I have ever been through. I was so confident going into this that I didn't even realize the ramification to my confidence. I was crushed and yesterday I kept thinking "what's wrong with me? there has to something wrong for no one to want to hire me" but then I realized that I am truly blessed to have been apart of not one, but two publishing companies in less than a year. Not many people can say that considering the industry that I am in.
It took me a day to figure out that not getting the job at Kobo was the beginning of something, not the end. I have had the pleasure of working with so many amazing book people that truly care about the same things I do, and I can't imagine not having these experiences. I know I will get hired some day, in the future when the time is right. But right now I think I will sit back and enjoy my last few months at Kobo knowing I did my best, and knowing that I could not have done anything different.
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